I wonder if life really sucks, or its just the way I am?

When I blog, it means I need to whine. Which is bad. Why do I have so much bad things to think about? I start to doubt myself. I wonder if Im turning schizo.. And little little stuffs can affect me so badly that I cant sleep properly at night. I worry bout my mental health.

Recently I met up with an old classmate. We seldom hang out together throughout the years and surprisingly, this friend knows me inside out! I was shocked when he could tell I was v uptight and stressed. He knew exactly how I feel without me telling him any of my problems. I was v impressed and felt good that finally someone knew how to read me accurately for once.

I am now transferred to a new department to work. The tricky part is working with my colleague. He is supposingly my subordinate cos my title is 'senior'. But he is more experienced and has been working at the place for some time already. He is prob pissed that Im at a higher position and feeling that I deserve less. There is a weird tension goin on, or mayb its just my brain. I feel really uneasy cos he is doing alot of stuffs like he really wants to prove something. He is taking control of alot of stuffs, and not informing me of his private discussions with the stylists/photographers for photoshoots. Im really feeling v uneasy. I feel he is really aggressive about competition. I had to ask him to give me things to do a few times, which shouldnt be the case at all. Today he even PR with the sales people and they talked to him about the jobs instead of me. Now, thats really annoying. Hes practically taking over everything! I already spoke to him about this, but I seriously dont think its going to stop anytime soon.

When will I ever have peace in my life? Why do I feel like shit everyday?